the amateur

Have you ever noticed how as soon as you try to stop doing something it's all you can think about doing?

Like if someone tells you not to scratch, your skin suddenly crackles with dryness and the desire to be scratched. (sidenote: don't you hate when people say they need to itch something?)

Or when you decide you're NOT going to look at someone's facebook profile because it will only lead to hours of melancholy and Adele on repeat. And before you know it your fingers are starting to type the name in the search bar anyway through some sort of muscle memory that has decided to mutiny after years of conveniently remembering piano songs and now only wants to type in THE ONE NAME you don't want to type.

Yeah. That's awesome.