Ever have one of those days you have trouble describing because you know no one will get it except the people who lived it?

And you know that you'll remember it forever no matter what happens in the future, because it was  perfect. Even the imperfect parts. And you want to tell everyone about this day and this person because how could you keep it in? But you promised, you and this person, that it would just be for the two of you. Just for us and no one else.

Ever had one of those days?

I went a year without TV. I watched stuff on Netflix and Hulu and it was really fine. But I missed watching the news while I got ready, and the Food Network and HGTV. Because really, who is going to watch those things on Hulu? I like them in the background or when I'm working out, or even when I'm with my parents because they make the best comments.

So now I have a bunch of channels, more than I'll watch. And do you know what I've been watching? Nick at Nite and Sex and the City. Yeah. Shows I've seen a million times. There are too many choices! I don't even know what to watch. I hear great things about Intervention and Hoarders and Pawn Stars...but they all sound sort of sad to me. I tried a reality show about relationship experts On Demand, but I've never been good at watching people embarrass themselves.

What should I watch?

I've mentioned it before, but Matt Nathanson is one of my absolute favorite artists. I never get tired of listening to any of his music, and I've seen him perform live 6 times (I think it's 6).

Lately I've been playing him a lot...at work, in the car, in my apartment. And everytime I hear "All We Are" my heart catches in my throat. Mostly b/c of this story: Counting the Days Until the World Goes Quiet

I dare you to read it an not get choked up. The gist of it is that a girl had to have surgery that would leave her deaf, and this was the last thing she chose to hear beforehand.

I'm posting a live version of the song, because I love what he says before he starts playing about life being short and living the way we want to every single day. About moving forward and also savoring each day. Anyway, I love this song, and I really want to internalize the message and remember it every day. To let go of high expectations for myself, to be 100% myself as often as I can be.

I tasted, tasted love so sweet
And all of it was lost on me
Bought and sold like property
Sugar on my tongue

I kept falling over
I kept looking backward
I went broke believing
That the simple should be hard

All we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful

I wasted, wasted love for you
Trading out for something new
Well, it's hard to change the way you lose
If you think you've never won

'Cause all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful

And in the end the words won't matter
'Cause in the end nothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain

'Cause all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, something real

All we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, beautiful