I keep telling myself I just have to make it to Monday. If I can make it to Monday and get everything done, I'm in the clear.

But the truth is, that's just a lie I'm telling myself. Yes, by Monday I will be moved into a new apartment, and the documentary I've been working on will be done. However...school is starting up at the end of August, and being in a new apartment means a huge change in my life. A change that is terrifying and exciting and wonderful and awful all at the same time.

I think this is how we get through life, by lying to ourselves. It's amazing what we can convince ourselves of, and how many times we fall for the same lie. At times like these, I think about something my dad told me once. I asked him if life ever got easier, and he said "No, you just stop expecting it to be."

So wish me luck, blog readers. That I will finish cutting the doc (and that it won't suck) and that somehow I will miraculously pull of a move in two(ish) days. It's times like these I wish I had better coping mechanisms.

I hate when I don't have any posts between music mondays...oh well. It's because I'm busy living a life, I suppose.

My love for Dave Matthews Band goes back years and years. I think I was in fifth grade when Under the Table and Dreaming came out, and my sister had the CD. I listened to it constantly, and the rest is history. Dave Matthews was my first real concert: Veteran Stadium (before it was torn down) in 1999 or 2000 (I can't believe I can't remember which!) with Ralph. That was the night we got left behind by my friend's parents and had to find our way through Philly after midnight to get to 30 street station, where my dad came and picked us up (that's a whole other story).

This music makes me happy. And I love this song. I want to dance to it at my wedding, and I want to feel this way about someone.

You and I, we're not tied to the ground
Not falling but rising like rolling around
Eyes closed above the rooftops
Eyes closed, we're gonna spin through the stars
Our arms wide as the sky
We gonna ride the blue all the way to the end of the world
To the end of the world

Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly

You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yes, yes

ps-That last post was apparently my 100th. Do I get a prize now?

Below, TED Talk about trying something for 30 days. Needless to say, I love it.

*the movie I didn't see is Supersize Me, because McDonald's grosses me out. Except for McFlurry's, which are awesome.

This past weekend was the 4th of July (duh) so I decided to try my hand at a patriotic cake for a church dinner.

I started by making two red layers, one blue layer, and one white layer.

I cut the red and white layers in half horizontally, and left the blue intact.





Then I cut out 4" circles from the blue, one red layer and one white layer. I stacked them all to create the flag pattern and applied cream cheese frosting (liberally).





Sadly, the people who cut the cake at dinner didn't actually use a knife, just a pie server, so it looks pretty ragged. But I'm still happy with how it turned out. Next time I'll use better food coloring to get brighter colors, and I'd probably make the cakes from scratch instead of using a mix.

Overall, though, a success!

Recently I had to reset my iPhone, and as a result, iTunes re-synced all my music from the iTunes store. It alerted me that five songs I'd purchased weren't in my library and one of them was this Jason Mraz song.

I've been listening to it nonstop since then (maybe a week ago)...and I remembered that it's also the music to one of my favorite routines from So You Think You Can Dance. So, I decided to share the video for that. But seriously, go listen to the whole song, it is running my life right now.

Disclaimer: I'm having a bit of a rough time, and music is one of the only things getting me through it. So apologies in advance if there is a lot of sappiness for a while.